Monday, July 30, 2012

moving on out.

We're still here! I am beyond behind on posting and DIYs but life is happening faster than I can possibly run. We started another really exciting adventure this weekend... moving into our first apartment!!!!!
I'm not sure how I can feel so many conflicting emotions at once, but I do. I am elated beyond belief but every time we go over to drop things off or clean things out I just keep saying (out loud),"holy crap, I live here".

I cannot wait to make this place a home. I am such a nook and cranny person. I love to make every little inch of a space feel special, if you've ever seen my current space you would truly understand. It is going to take me some time, combing two peoples likes, inspiration,and comfort it is going to be quite the task but I am completely up for the challenge.
Dismantling my current home is a something I have yet to confront. I moved in when I was sixteen and have built myself a magical escape where I feel both inspired and safe. I haven't ever had to let someone else into my world, but if it had to be anyone I am so thankful it is Greg.
I will try to keep you updated and fill you in on all the beautiful goings on as of late.
xoxo j

Friday, July 20, 2012

Thursdays for Thought.

Ok, ok. I know it is now Friday, but I did start writing this yesterday when it was on my brain heavily. 
One thing I think I really hate about coming to Jersey is it usually means I am going to have to come to terms with things. This generally happens because when I am here away from my normal distractions, busy schedule, and to-do-lists full of things begging for my attention, my mind seems to clear and I have to deal with things I am internally struggling with. I begin to actually process things out and reflect and move forward. And this week the the conclusion that I have been hiding from came full force and even though I do not want to see it or believe it, its true: growing up is really hard.
No one tells you when you get engaged that along with planning your magical day full of sunbeams and sugar clouds, you will also begin one of the greatest seasons of change you have ever experienced. Everything from your residence to your last name is going to be toppled upside down and though they are all good things it is a lot to take on at once.
I like to think of myself as a pretty strong person, someone who can handle a good amount at one time. But, I'm not sure if its just my emotional peak in life or the sheer amount of (for lack a better word) crap that has been happening to us lately but I feel I am nearing a breaking point.
It is not easy to face trial after trial when you're already in such a heavy season of change, to not let doubt and insecurity invade your life. It feels like you are constantly moving uphill as things roll down the hill to knock you over, and eventually you no longer feel like you want to get up, you just want to lay there and let it all go by.
Then this week I saw this... "keep going". So simple, so frank. I wanted to make a million excuses to my computer screen when I saw it. About why I am too tired to move forward, about how nothing ever seems to go smoothly for me, about how I work so hard and never seem to catch a break.
But the words have been in my brain all week.. "keep going..keep going"
Then it hit my like a ton  of bricks.
It was seemed as though something so obvious had become so clear. I do have to keep going, I need to move forward and accept the obstacles no matter how much it sucks because I am not alone anymore.
I not walking uphill alone, I have someone to get me up when I fall.
It wasn't until the brink of a meltdown when I freaked out to Greg and said, "aren't you scared?" You do  not have a job yet// My wedding dress doesn't fit//We're running out of money//We're signing a lease in a week//AH!
and he genuinely replied without a shake in his voice, nothing is going to keep me from marrying you.
He always can see what I can not. I have been planning and living and acting like I am in this alone. As if I were to sink no one would even try to rescue me, but he would.
I do not have to figure out growing up all by myself. I have a teammate, a best friend who is going to tough it out with me. And even if my dress is the wrong size and even if we have to live off macaroni and cheese, he still wants to marry me anyway.
So here is to all the newness one person can possibly handle and to having a partner to help carry the load.
xoxo j

Le wedding//guest blog

Good morning dears! 
I am guest blogging today over at Sweet and Wild for the new Mrs Jackie Quigley while she is on her honeymoon. Wanna know how to make your own DIY luggage tag? Head over to her blog to get the step by step:)
more later,
xo j

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Le Wedding// The Secret Garden Shower

“And the secret garden bloomed and bloomed and every morning revealed new miracles.” 

When you have a bridal shower it is somewhat of a blur. At the end you know it was wonderful, you know you enjoyed it, but you do not remember anything specific. You cannot recall exactly what the room (or backyard) looked like or all of whose faces you saw, it feels as hard to remember as a memory from years ago even though it was only a few short weeks ago.
But sometimes you have lovely friends who can capture your day just perfectly through a lens. Friends who give you a disc full of all your memories so you can refer to them and relive each detail.
These photos are from my dear friend Lisa's eyes, I hope enjoy a little glimpse into the beautiful world these beautiful ladies created for me.

I cannot handle all the beauty within these pictures. If you know me at all or maybe just have an idea who I am from reading this little blog, you would know this day was truly and perfectly me.
There are many more photos of all the lovely people who came that day. I figured I would have a separate post for it just so you do not get photo overloaded.
more very soon.
xoxo j

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

for the brave.

To my baby brother, all who came before and all who will come after, endless thank yous for all you do for this country. The reason everyone can sit poolside, eating grilled goodness and have no fear in them for what is going on else where in the world. I'll spare you my mini rant from last year, though my feelings remain the same.
May you all have a safe and happy holiday and remember those who fight to give you the carefree life you live.
xoxo j

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Good morning!

My friends are super talented. I literally love when I can get a little glimpse inside their brains. My dear friend Bethany made this little video yesterday and I just had to share it with you.
If this doesn't make you want to start your day off with a cup of coffee I do not know what will.
Head over to her site PeachPlumPear and look at all the lovely things she has been up to.
Wishing you a happy Tuesday!
xo j